And really, Only the best die young. And I really hope you do know this, We may never have talked much or even known much about each other, your smile brighten my days in school nonetheless, always.
Rest in peace, Melissa. You'll be missed, now and always.
died at 1:09 AM
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Because I'm me.
No matter how far I am away, They'll always have something to say, Never hearing what I would have to tell.
No matter how much I change, They'll always look at me the way they want to, Never the way just how I am.
But because I'm me, I'm really not that noble. And I choose the way I'm living now without conforming.
Carefree, fun and fulfilling. I can safely say for the past 2 months, I've finally started to come terms to myself.
For who I am and the things I do.
died at 10:08 AM
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Fred Perry ION design analysis came to a halt 1 hour ago because I chanced upon some old photos.
I can't say we went through life and death, but we could have went through thick and thin. Or so I thought.
As time went pass I told myself to let go, And as time went by, I thought I have left it all behind.
Either way, it means nothing now. If leaving was the better choice, regardless of what I say every now and then, I feel glad for you.
And I really really fucking do hope it was the better choice.
All the times we shared laughter, anxiety and anger. All the times we tried to hide our sorrows. Everything we all shared, I believe we all, each and everyone of us, would keep safe deep in us.
Whatever happened shouldn't matter a bit by now too, We're all grown up now. No longer a punch on the face nor a treat to a meal can change anything, any longer.
I just wanted to say, At this very time of today, 6:48AM January 11th 10,
I miss you, you fuckin' piece of worthless shit.
died at 2:38 PM
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Friends & Family are always my priority. Never work, never money and never Love.
Even these five days whereby Dad and Mom wouldn't be around, I'll stay in a piece and show them their 18 year old rebellious at time kid shit is old enough to at least survive 6 days 5 nights. Not by himself though, he's got friends as well :D
Along the way I've always bear in mind. Friendship and Kinship is the best shit.
After all, every now and then they're always the ones that save my ass, clean up my mess and bear with me. At the end of the day, they never fail to be the ones that makes me feel like crap each time I screw up.
Not as petty as they'll be upset with me, but the fact that they'll always give me a second chance each time I admit that I'm at fault and apologize. Even when they know very well that I at times mean no sincerity but a false show to get away with.
To be honest, I've always been low in confidence. Never taking my interest in priority and not even capable taking of taking good care over my own health. Spending all my money whenever I'm better off is one major huge pain in the ass problem too.
And yes, I was never too afraid to admit that I am scared of being alone. In fact, I hate to be alone and I tend to get swallowed whole by insecurities when I am by myself.
But I got here today just fine. Bumped around along the way, got through times I never thought I'll get through. Got bruised all over and it all healed, only scars that serve as teaching experience.
I got so far only because I'm constantly being protected. I ought to be ashamed to have lived for 18 years yet is still acting like a kid all the time, kicking up fuss over nothing and hurting the ones that keep me from being hurt.
Especially my folks. Old and naggy they may be, they're probably the best I can ever get though I am definitely not the best son they deserve. I hope they feel my gratitude but I doubt they would since the only time they see me is when I reach home after mid night almost daily. HAHA. I'll learn to go home early as soon as I learn time management. :D
Its probably random and out of point. But I just want to say this.
For them, I'll give up the world. And by the things they've done for me all the while, I can only repay by living as true to myself as possible. If that sentence even make any sense anyway.
I wouldn't always do the right thing, But I'll never go against my conscience for the sake of superficial stuff called money or interest of my own.
True enough, there still would be times to come that I will let my temper get the better of me and screw up. But slowly, I'll learn to be more mature.
I'll learn to be a good friend, a good son and a good student. And to anyone who think this post goes to them; Yes it is. And I'll always be by your side like how you were for me
It's been a long ranttttt and I'm drained. Time to hit the sackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!
died at 12:10 PM
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Innocence; Price to pay for Misery.
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Okay random. But that smile reminded me of how much I've lost all these while.
