garrhhh. fuck.
right, first thing first, results were pretty much okay except for maths :D much much much better thn what i expected would be seriously. well maths, i guess i wasnt good w it to start with, what more i had fever, headache and diahorrea tht day, alrdy miraculous thn i failed w a D7 instead of the F9.
oh and hong guo, if you sees this, dont be worried luh!
life recently.. has been weird.
im getting strange and irritating, somehow.
been pretty much irritated by myself daily, sometimes i really get so frustrated ill punch my own face, just to realise that it hurts a lot and it dosnt really help but worsen the pimples.it dosnt really ends there, apparently whn i get all frustrated w myself, i tend to seriously fuck up whoever that talks to me. my mum just told me that im getting really short fuse lately, and i walked off evn before she cld finish wht she intended to say. seriously, i need to wake up my idea.
honestly, everything's wrong w me.
and i seriously dont know wht's happening.
got my money.
got my new wallet.
got my new handphone.
got my ideal results.
got all my new clothings.
got all the materialistic needs i ever wished for.
but i aint really getting the feel of being ecstatic compared to receiving a msg from you, and ill give my chest a few hard knocks just to see if i can somehow activate anything that can generates happiness.
one morning whn i was on the train while on the way to work, i reached the stn of where i used to alight w you just to see you walk away. just then, i saw someone who looked so much like you walked in from two cabins away, my heart really stopped for a moment back then. the nxt thing i knew, i was slapped hard back to reality. it was just someone who has the same hairstyle and dresses like you, there just wasnt any possiblity that you wld appear there, but i still held on to such stupid hopes. so what even if it was really you back then? tsk, its all the same. but the stupid me was so disappointed and my mind was really taken off the whole day, and thn stupidly got three cuts on the arm in the next hour at work.
yesterday was nothing, today was just as empty, and i guess tomorrow wouldnt really be anything. absence really do makes the heart grows fonder i guess.
fuck myself off for now :D
