and im back agn : )
alright, this time not to rant about anything.
instead, ill say this, im contented w life. :D really.
after thinking for some time, i realise i'm just that ordinary.
ordinary as in, i'm just the same as anyone out there.
somehow, it might not be a big hooha for you guys hurr.
but for me to think of myself as ordinary aint really quite usual.
i ve always thought, im different.
it dosnt really matter whos better thn me, whos worse.
im just different, and im pretty proud of that.
but somehow, thinking back now, how am i different -.-
i can only do what any others can.
i cant do what others aint able to do.
at times, i cant even do what others can do -.-
boring really, fuck.
its been a long long long time.
been burying myself w work, fun, money and materialistic stuff.
havn been able to think that straight for such long time.
maybe, all these while, i didnt even think straight for once.
but im happy, whether i did the right thing or not, i was happy.
and being happy, is just as enough.
afterall, i tell myself, being happy is the reason i live.
but sometimes, even i doubt thats true LOL.
maybe i live because im afraid to die lah LMAO.
right.
and every morning, i kinda get to see all kinds of people.
people rushing to work, people rushing to the market, and all.
it kinda makes me think a bit at times.
like, everyone just has their own life to live aint? obviously -.-
but, what makes them able to live through everyday.
everyday, the whole bitchy lifetime.
are they happy or what?
are they living for some others that still needs em.
or are they living just because they are still living.
corny i guess.
jowin asked me during work, " when do you want to die "
and i just answered her " anytime "
oh woah, she spammed me w all sorts of her ambition and reasons to live.
urgh urgh urgh, does it really feels that great to have a reason to live LOL.
i guess so, like, at least ure living for some reason, and that indirectly
makes one enjoy life more hur.
but im contented w life leh, so why live? knn, fuck knows whn ill lose smt -.-
and if i lose smt and i die, wnt i be more unhappy thn if i die now!
good game, its like 2.08 am and i kinda, off.
oh.
thank fuck i ve got a bunch of idiots in my life. really.
i think i thank whoever for em in my every post, but it aint really enough leh.
maybe i needa like, left my inheritance to them whn i die.
each of them will get.. .. ..
some of my debts :D
and really.
rip my heart out seriously.
and i cant believe this.
it actually keeps talking and it wont stop.
im losing sleep because it refuse to shut up.
its a big mouth dickhead thats worse thn me.
its a traitor that wont bitch off.
but it only says one thing true.
i love you.
time to fuck off and sleep!
and live my boring life as a normal fucker tmr morning.
