oh dear, oh dear dear, oh dear dear dear.
this guy that does nothing except whining & ranting is back agn >.<
ohwell, thats life! why so serious :D
my my, its been long since i looked up to the sky and feel nostalgic and all.
i guess, life haven left me w much time to be able to do all those stuff recently.
its all about work and getting money thn spending it all away and so it goes.
sometimes, its really me restraining myself from getting the best out of
life i guess. uh huh, its kind of a regret, passing by days without expecting.
living everyday just because its kind of a obligation.
somehow, took me quite awhile to remember what i told another back then.
i'm living my own life, experiences only i know, and feelings only i feel.
i cant deny them all can i? i mean, yes, i admit i do say life's bitchy and
all the time, but i guess, its only til now i really do feel like im grateful
just to be alive at this very moment. it may be for no reason that i'm living
for, but im glad that i'm still here : )
pretty strange huh? like why am i blurting out nonsense that has no links
to anything out of a sudden away. somewhat it even sounds like i ve just
been to life and death and all, but its not. i'm just trying to put the thoughts
all over my mind into words right now, afterall, thoughts like these dosnt come
everyday. so its okay even if no one's reading the blog, at least, i get to read it myself someday whn i look back at this very day.
4 years of life, truly changed me into a total different guy.
a better guy or worst, actually i dont really know.
but i know, i'm still childish, self-ish, inconsiderate and inmature at times.
however, even with all those flaws, i ve learnt to appreciate the little little
things in life that makes it extraordinary. in fact, those little little things
that happens dont just happen by any coincidence, and because it happens to only me, myself and I, it makes my life different from all the others.
and i think i really should say this to all my friends, provided they sees it.
that i'm sorry, for being so wild at times and not sparing a thought for their feelings whn i say somethings so hurtful. for all the times i was all so childish
and inmature, like, venting out all on you guys whn im upset or whatsoever, never giving a thought that you guys might be even feeling worst thn me. its a pretty short part, but it dedicated to you guys : )people like the fools, johanna, karen and all.
sounded stupid? maybe. but thats what i wanted to say at many times but i dont know how to. ohshit, i think they're gna laugh their ass off at me if they sees this, but well, at least i made em laugh LOL.
and i suddenly miss the times back thn whn all of us were busy mugging for the o's. the late nights whereby i chionged through the night trying to finish the fnn.
and the sec 2s days especially! sitting beside Adrian LMAO.
those days were really, adventurous? LMAO. wrong word right place.
i miss the kind of silence in the night. to reflect upon life :D
i miss the kind of rain, afterall, they say the rain cleanses one's soul LMAO.
i miss basking in the sunlight. to be able to fill the kind of energy.
i miss the wind, the kind of gentle breeze that reminds me of childhood.
i miss the sea. so vast and blue, arghhh!
and the sky.
its been quite awhile since i paid attention to things of such.
i guess i better start to snap out of this boring life! :D
just another random enough post eh? too bad.
fuck off world! :D
