yo.
and i wonder why i'm doing so much post recently.
but first thing first.
thanks guys! for last night's treat and all.
like woah, you guys hardly even have time for
yourselves yet make time out for last night,
i really really appreciate it =D
dinner was good, had hell lot of time catching up
because food took forever to be served LOL.
perfect chance to gossip and do stupid shits and
laugh at each other =.=
POOL was damn good, because i haven touched a cue
for like two weeks already, its a dumb addiction.
shall not go into the details about the weird peeps
at the table beside ours >.< too friendly eh.
i really dont know how else i can put it, but love
you guys :D
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yet today's the last of my sweet 16th.
upcoming magical 17th seem so, i dont know, weird.
so somewhat, today's a meaningful day for me at least.
looking back at the 364 days, man, cant help but wonder.
what the fuck have you done to to yourself Tay Bing Hui.
yes, its only 17th.
but fuck, i used to say i'm 15 in the past.
how i used to have quarrels with my mum and ends it
off with " i'm only a 16! dont push me so hard. "
everyone has to grow up, i know.
its okay to be childish and immature still.
its okay to screw up sometimes.
its okay if i cant get things right all the time.
its okay if i get over my own feelings at times.
its okay to feel disappointed by myself.
its okay to even fall right to the bottom again.
its okay if all things has to go against me.
but it isn't right, right?
it really isn't okay, is it?
after tonight, ill be a 17th.
i cant be that willful anymore.
i cant be thinking of just running away.
i cant stay immature and childish anymore.
i need to face some serious shit myself sometimes.
i need to start learning how to get over myself.
i dont know.
this insecure feeling within me.
its like, i dont want to grow up.
i'm kind of, scared.
perhaps, its just me thinking too much.
but shut up, i'm feeling messy.
just one last time as a 16 year old dumb ass.
i'll try to get over all these by myself.
your heart will always watch you
with the feelings that tear your heart apart.
ah! ohwell!
LOL i said too much.
okay shut the fuck for now.
shall join the guys the exercising!
OFF TO STADIUM NOW FUCKERS.
