A NEVER ENDING JOURNEY

Friends & Family are always my priority.
Never work, never money and never Love.

Even these five days whereby Dad and Mom
wouldn't be around, I'll stay in a piece and show
them their 18 year old rebellious at time kid shit
is old enough to at least survive 6 days 5 nights.
Not by himself though, he's got friends as well :D

Along the way I've always bear in mind.
Friendship and Kinship is the best shit.

After all, every now and then they're always the ones
that save my ass, clean up my mess and bear with me.
At the end of the day, they never fail to be the ones that
makes me feel like crap each time I screw up.

Not as petty as they'll be upset with me, but the fact that
they'll always give me a second chance each time I admit
that I'm at fault and apologize. Even when they know very
well that I at times mean no sincerity but a false show to get
away with.

To be honest, I've always been low in confidence.
Never taking my interest in priority and not even capable
taking of taking good care over my own health.
Spending all my money whenever I'm better off is one
major huge pain in the ass problem too.

And yes, I was never too afraid to admit that I am scared
of being alone. In fact, I hate to be alone and I tend to get
swallowed whole by insecurities when I am by myself.

But I got here today just fine.
Bumped around along the way, got through times I
never thought I'll get through. Got bruised all over
and it all healed, only scars that serve as teaching
experience.

I got so far only because I'm constantly being protected.
I ought to be ashamed to have lived for 18 years yet is still
acting like a kid all the time, kicking up fuss over nothing
and hurting the ones that keep me from being hurt.

Especially my folks. Old and naggy they may be, they're
probably the best I can ever get though I am definitely
not the best son they deserve.
I hope they feel my gratitude but I doubt they would since
the only time they see me is when I reach home after mid night
almost daily. HAHA. I'll learn to go home early as soon as I
learn time management. :D

Its probably random and out of point.
But I just want to say this.

For them, I'll give up the world.
And by the things they've done for me all the while,
I can only repay by living as true to myself as possible.
If that sentence even make any sense anyway.

I wouldn't always do the right thing, But I'll never go
against my conscience for the sake of superficial stuff
called money or interest of my own.

True enough, there still would be times to come that I
will let my temper get the better of me and screw up.
But slowly, I'll learn to be more mature.

I'll learn to be a good friend, a good son and a good student.
And to anyone who think this post goes to them;
Yes it is.
And I'll always be by your side like how you were for me

It's been a long ranttttt and I'm drained.
Time to hit the sackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

died at 12:10 PM